Vanilla Twilight ♥

Happy Birthday to me. im officially eighteen today. well, i dont really find it a big deal anyways. im not happy either. i feel sad. and why is it so? i dont know. every year i feel the same. is this gonna happen to me every year? well i just wish someone could accompany me throughout the night for my birthday. surprise me with something i like? make me feel happy by doing something i like for once? i mean, i have feelings too. i wanna feel appreciated and loved. i may be smiling on the outside, but deep down inside i wish things were much better. im pretty much sensitive at times and i wish YOU would at least pay a lil attention to me for once. well i guess thats enough for today. im off to bed.

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

(ilovethispartofthesong. its really sad.)

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia, Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink , I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter, And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

AndI'll forget the world that I knew, But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach, Back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear

Oh darling, I wish you were here.

p/s : this song, its really sweet. its one of my afvourite songs too. i know you care and love me alot. but im so sorry things had to end this way. the past can never be turned back. but you'll always be in my memory cos you complete part of my life. im posting this for you. hope you'll understand and not treat me differently. im still waiting for your wish although i know you would'nt be wishing me. sadly as it is, im off to bed already. nights.