First Time

the cuddly moments we had, sleeping together wrapping his arms around me, 

the little kisses and his chest, they make me feel like I'm his forever. 

the five fingertip promises we made, finally after a decade, we held it hand in hand again tonight <3

one of the best moments, when we looked at each other eye to eye while i held my arms around his neck and swayed :) 

one of the best day's that has ever been ever since the past three months and i know we just love each other too much that no matter what, we're always in this together, trying to work things out although it has been so hard. i would never give up on him, never. I want to trust him, and i will. although it may see so hard and heartbreaking at times, i'm willing to wait for him to change. willing to do my best for him, to show him that i appreciate him and to prove to him that he means the world to me. tonight, he made me feel like the first time. my love, let's fall in love all over again. :) 

i love you, Adrian lee. now, always and forever <3

90210

So, I've just watched 90210 and i realized that these girls in the movie are just nothing but pure spoiled brats! i mean i love the movie, but when i watch it, it just make me realize that they can be really mean when it comes to stereotyping or bullying. the could actually go to an extend of having sex with someone in order to break another person's heart. or even worst, these girls, just because they can't get to see some actor or date a hot guy in school, they think their life is over. what has these tv shows portray in the minds of people these days? I don't think they are doing any good, but instead they have been spoiling the minds of people that have watched their movies. there are so many girls out there trying so hard to have a slim body by starving themselves everyday, there are even people thinking that they can have sex with anyone in order to fit in, and even dressing the way they dress to look good and to be accepted in society. call me old fashioned, but then what I'm saying is somehow true in some ways, don't you think so? But there are also good deeds portrayed in the movie such as confidence and love which can be seen in Naomi's character. She would never just settle for anything but she would always want the best for her, therefore she never gives up. She even cares for her friends in the movie, but somehow in the end they betray each other. if you're wondering who's Naomi, well here she is : 

                                                                      she's hot, isn't she? :)

well, she's not the only hot one. Liam on the other hand, is so goddamn sexy and gorgeous. the only reason why I've been watching 90210. I can't stop staring at his body, the way he flips his hair, the way he talks, the way he walks, and even the way he just stares and say nothing but yet still so HOT. *drools*

 

ughhh his so cute! don't you think so?

HAHA okay fine maybe his not hot to you but then this type of guy fits my taste ;) i mean not that I can get him anyways. but hell yeah, his hot! enough said. 

HEARTACHES.

do you know what hurts the most? when the one person you care most about does not act or react the same way as you. everytime i try to make things better, everything is just so screwed up. do you know what it feels like to be ignored? to be waiting for one simple reply when you write something long and nice with all your heart but all that person does is reply like his forced to reply and appreciate it. it just hurts so bad that i feel like i'm not worth at all, where everyone out there is worth that one reply, but not me because i'm not that important after all or maybe because i've always been there so now i am being pushed around or being taken for granted? that feeling of hate, anger, sadness and disappointment resolves me all the time, but somehow i try to tell myself to be patient and things will be alright, but i never got that assurance or an answer to it. people ask me what do i see in him, and i replied i see someone that i'm willing to do anything as long as his happy. but will he do the same? everyone says he doesn't deserve him because its me that loves him more than he loves me but all the time i try so hard to back him up, to deny every single thing they say. but will you ever do that for me? 
WHY does love have to be so hard, you tell me? why do the loyal ones always get hurt?