27.05.2011

hello people! :D

here I am updating my blog again, after some time. 

well, today has been some kind of a productive day tho' although it was stressful and frustrating in the morning.

seriously, college was a bitch today. never loved this semester!

knew it was gonna be a mess, but OH WELL.

woke up at 6am today only to find out that it was raining super heavily on a weekday 

when i have 8am classes. SCREW 8AM classes!

went to college with my wet clothes and ended up doing assignments the whole day, rushing and rushing

and it's only like what? the first week of the semester? fucked up. 

BUT..

anyways, i had an awesome lunch :D i know i said i'm gonna go on a diet but the plan somehow always

fails, since i'm a super big eater, but surprisingly i didn't eat anything at all yesterday

since i was sick. so yeah. 

came home and slept after that, woke up and went for dinner and pool with Pink and Song Chee.

the only two klang people i can actually count on. seriously, i think i'm losing all my klang friends.

i've not seen any of them around lately except those who are in my college of course.

but i did have a fun night and i've just thought of starting to practice playing pool. I KNOW I SUCK AT IT OK. but it can always be learnt. :D

thank god, i've been better lately. gotta slow down on smoking. its killing my throat. :/

oh and someone's birthday is today, so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHIN GUAN :D

have fun (:

TIRED.

PATHETIC. you know i've come to realized that my life is so pathetic and sad. I've no interest or talent in anything. all i do is listen to people going on and on about their lives and how things goes and how everything's so great this way and that way. and then i come home, and i just stare completely blank at the ceiling thinking, what am i good at? what am i actually interested in doing and how pathetic my life is. why do i feel this way ? why ? is it because of all the stress that i have been facing? all the relationship stuffs that has been going thru my head, and no one else knows how i feel, not even my boyfriend. sometimes i think it's all because of the way i was brought up. i wasn't like any other kids who had the best childhood memories. all i remember from my childhood were all negative stuffs, and now being treated unfairly all the time, it sucks. living with overprotective parents, are the worst thing ever. i'm deprived from everything, EVERYTHING that i love to do, everything a young girl would want to do. i'm not blaming them for being overprotective, but seriously, deep down i feel like shit. i feel like i've known nothing about the world but instead i'm protected from the realistic world. it's like there's no freedom at all. and just when the semester break starts, this thoughts in my head, they're so torturing. and knowing that everything is a lie, it's so hard to really trust a person sometimes, but i'm just living with it. sad isn't it ? i know.

p/s : nothing can make me feel better anymore. these tears that can never stop rolling down, i'm done with it.  if only time could turn back to how it was...

 goodbye.

Bits & Pieces.

OKAY, SO HERE'S THE THING. everyone is shocked to find out that I'm smoking. why so? i don't get it either. haha! some of my friends staring at me weirdly, some asking me "sinc when do you smoke", "when you started smoking?" & etc etc. i mean, yeah maybe before this i didn't so yeah i've changed to become more "bad" i can say. but oh well. it's just for sometime after all the stress that has been going on with college and relationships. but it's all good people. yeah i smoke, and drink at times, so what? deal with it. if you wanna judge me then go ahead. i'm fine with it :) i have the right to make my own choices and decisions. anyway, i'm not going to say much about that..

5:30pm - went to watch FAST 5. and hell yeah i can say it was one of the most best and awesomest movie ever. i don't mind paying to watch it again. (Y) the way they robbed and steal those cars and money, pro sial :O and guess what? i actually liked Vin Diesel although i said i dislike muscular guys, but him, OMG HOT AS HELL. loved his body and his character in the movie. yums.

10.00pm - Went to meet song chee and pink at Express. yeah, i've been hanging out with her like almost everyday. what would i do without her. gossiped about some stuffs, did some catching up with song chee as well. puffed and drank a few cups. i can never drink much, my face and eyes gets super red. that's why i hate drinking :S so yeah.

OH OH. and for Mother's day, made a card for mummy and got her a bouquet of flowers :D i know, i know i'm a really good daughter. hehehe :P

   p/s : happy mother's day mummy ♥