Lost.

i wish things could be so much easier for me.

i just need a break from everything.

i wish i could just close my eyes and forget everything thats happening.

But It Cant Happen.

If Only I Could Tell You How I Feel.
If Only Words Can Decribe How I Feel Inside.
Im Confused, Lost, Heartbrokened.
It Affetcs Things I Know, But It'll Never Change My Love For You.
I Still Love You No Matter What.
I Just Dont Know How To Express Things Yet.
Its Hard For Me To Act Like Im Okay.
My Mind Is Filled With Alot Of Things That Cant Be Solved.
I'll Make It Up To You When Im Okay.
Please Dont Give Up On Me. ♥

23rd-July-2010.

its been a long day today.

tiring but fun though :D

started off my day by singing my heart out at Greenbox.

went there with ily and i was actualie lucky cos they extended time till 3pm.

it means we were actually karaoke-ing for 5hours.

from 10am-3pm.

awesome right? :D

guess im just lucky. hehehe.

and guess what?

im going again tmr. aha.

its seriously fun cos i can let out all my frustration by singing. haha.

the only song i loved singing most was "I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith!"

loveeee that song!

after greenbox, we went for lunch together.

waited till 6 to watch Street Dance together with Ikhwan.

i actually watched it before but it was nice to watch it again.

aeon is gettin super cold nowadays /:

which actually sucks cos i shiver everytime i go there!

anyway after the movie we talked for about 40minutes while waiting for bie.

he fetched me out of aeon and we went to a mamak nearby.

i kinda argued with him over somethin.

but we manage to solve things and it turned out okay.

soooo, conclusion: it has been a long and tiring day and im off to bed :D

xoxoxox! (:

~ you broke my heart and it made me wanna cry.

TwentyFirstJulyTwoThousandTen :D

 (:

let's see. hmm what i did today?

basically, jus hang out at aeon -.-

BORINGGGG!  

but, i got to spend the day with bie. so its considered unboring.

we had pizza for lunch. finally i could end my cravings for pizza and i felt so satisfied!

haha.

well, after that we went for a movie.

which was sooo boring for me but fun for bie /:

slept off halfway watching it.

stupid Inception :@

its more to mind games.

so not my type of movieee :/

was in aeon till 9pm.

how lifeless can i be. thanks to my mum cos i got no transport to go back.

was thinking bout taking my undang test again today. but i forgot what i studied again.

DAMNIT!

and sooo,

after the movie bie had to leave so i was in r20 talking to ikhwan.

and i got myself a blue checkered shirt :D

finally, i found a nice one with a reasonable price since im kinda broke now.

again, i have to wait for ten days to get my next pay.

sigh.

i feel so lifeless nowadays after quitting my job.

shouldn't have resigned till i started college /:

orientation is on the 29th,

and im starting classes on the 2nd of august.

hopefully i'll blend in with the other students and have new friends .

till then, toodles !

                                                                                                                                           

HeLovesMe, IKnow :)

                                                                                                                                                      xoxoxox! ♥

Impossible.

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot

I did

 

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now, Shout it from the roof top

Write it on the sky love, All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy, And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love is worst

Empty promises will wear

I know (i know)

And know when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof top

Write it on the sky love

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love

All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did.

ohshit. emoness back again all of a sudden after listening to this song /:

p/s : Bie, IHeartYou ♥

30 Random Facts About Me :D

1. i hate showering and i can go on without showering for days.

2. i love complaining instead of trying to find a solution :P p/s : bie im sorry. aha

3. i love eating and i spend half of my pay buying food :O

4. i have a thing for fluffy and huge-eyed things. i find them freaking-ishly CUTE!

5. i cant live without my 3-month-old boyfie. i'd probably be lost or dead without him :O

6. i have a warm body, with cold hands and feet. weird i know.

7. i have flabby arms and legs. and i hate it! ):

8. i have a huge ass and its getting bigger and bigger day by day.

9. i love black and red ;D

10. i hate to admit it when im wrong and i'll never accept the fact that im wrong either.

11. i have loads of pride and ego. everyone agrees with it.

12. im proud to be chindian but i cant speak either tamil or chinese -__- total banana!

13. i planned on marrying the guy im currently madly in love with now. long-lasting relationship perhaps? <3

14. i cant leave home without my eyeliners on. hehe.

15. i have always dreamed of getting my own petshop :p

16. imma reptile lover :D

17. i hate wearing shoes. and i'd never wear them unless i dont have a choice. flipflop fan :D

18. im a heartbreaker at times.

19. perfectionist too.

20. i love literature, and basically anything that has to do with poems.

21. im a good listener but a bad advisor. so please dont look for me when you're in trouble. haha

22. i love making out! especially with bie :D

23. i've turned into a shopoholic ever since i started working.

24. i hate milk and i think its disgusting :S

25. im selfish, impatient and immature at times.

26. im chubby, short and i make alot of noise.

27. i tend to pee everytime i feel scared, cold or get high. hahaha

28. i love camwhoring and i think its fun :D

29. i love geting sick and i always wish to get fever for days but it always fails to happen. haha

30. biting my nails are one of my worst habits /:

 

im just happy being me :D

5th-July-2010

*yawns* just came back from dinner. today was my off day, soooo as usual where else and who i'll be with? obviously with bie. hehe. spend the whole day with him today. went to pyramid. im kinda bored of that place already. wanted to go shopping but i didnt see anything nice so instead we got a hamster =D hehehe! its freaking cute and its called a roborovski, i think. LOL. ohyeah and i finally got to watch The Back Up Plan. AWESOME movie :D i loved it. i had fun today although we argued before going back /: there's so many new movies coming soon and im dying to watch them. yeay finally its the fifth. ten more days to go for me to quit my job! i got my pay this month but its freaking lil. so not much shopping can be done ): its like damn sakit hati when i wanna spend my money thinking of how hard it is to get it. now i know. haha. bie tries his best everyday to make me save tho but i knw his giving up cos i've turned in to a shopoholic :O i know right. i admit it myself. i cant control myself from buying what i want, i wonder how some ppl can. its so tempting to see everything thats nice! yikes! i've been eating like a pig ever since god knows when. okay wait, actually im a huge eater. everyone at work calls me "budak kuat makan" -.- i cant help it ): everytime i try to diet, the plan fails. what else shud i do huh? ): 

hmmmm anyway, im off to bed. thats all for today, needa go talk to bie now! toodles. xoxoxxo <3