Back To The Start.

okay so, I've been wayyyyyyyyy too emotional in all my previous posts. looking back and reading them, actually made me realize it was all so dumb to cry over spilled milk. so i decided to take a twist and stop wasting my time crying over people who don't need me in their live. but instead, i chose another path, which is to appreciate the ones in front of me that constantly wants to be there for me in their lives. well, it wasn't so bad after all breaking up. I thought I would be whining, and ranting and complaining or I would probably just live in my room and never get out again, but what's funny is, none of those actually happened. I realize, its for the better and I think I'll be slowly moving on, and I sense a good year ahead. :) FREEEEEEEEEEEDOM :D

heartbrokened.

have you ever felt like your heart is as if its being cut into half? have you ever felt so stupid for trusting and expecting something that you thought would ever happen? have you ever felt like all your dreams and future were all crushed down just like that where you dont have anyone neither do you even have anything or anyone left that you could ever talk to anymore, spend time with, do things that could make you feel the happiest always? because that's exactly how i feel. i feel at the worst state i've ever been in my whole entire life right now. why does life have to be so unfair and selfish? do u deserve to be going through all this just because i love too much? or is it because i trusted and got attached to someone so easily? why is it me, that has to go through this, i know i;ve done the worst things, but this is even worst than what i deserve. i've never felt so down , so alone, so hurt right until today. the worst year of my life, the day i wish would never come, it finally came. i knew somehow that it was coming, but i just didn't think it would be that fast. god, why did i ever have to go through this? i want to be happy. i want to smile all over again. i don't want to cry, not a single tear. if only anyone could understand the pain that i'm going through. well, i guess not. because right now, its just me. and myself against the world. until today, i still can never find a reason to hate you no matter how much i try. because that's what true love is to me.